First of all, thank you guys for all the fb :) i wasnt really sure anybody would bother with this stupid little story. it means a lot to me! - oh yea, and the trailer lot is from Insiminator.net i think, i made a mistake when i downloaded it, and accedently downloaded one that werent compatible with expansionpacks, and for some reason that made some of the objects iffy when i downloaded the right version.. so that is why there is somethings missing. Remember this is PG and has a language warning.

enjoy!

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I went to the adress that Ade had given me. In the car as i drove i had seen the houses grow further and further apart, untill they werent even real houses anymore. i had never seen anything like this. but i dobbelchecked with my note, and the trailer there seemed to be the right adress. I got out of the car, feeling redicolously overdressed in my suit, and walked over to a young girl who was laying on the ground, enjoying the sun. "uhm excuse me" i said, hoping i did sound as nervous as i was. "I am looking for Early, is he arund here?"

"who wants to know?" the girl said.

"I am an old friend of his" I said, stepping closer to her.

"Arent they all" she grinned "but sure, i think hes inside with mamma"

The way she had said that made my skin crawl, was he still making money like that? and if so, did he really do it here?

I came inside to the filthy trailer, but didnt see anybody, and then i heard voices, so i opened a door ajar, and peeked inside, and there he was, i wasnt mistaking, this was indeed the Early i had known, he had grown, and for a second i couldent help but to smile as i looked at his hair, i had never known what his real haircolor was. this was just as beautiful as when he had dyed it. but i couldent see his face, i could only see a old woman, who was very aggrivated, and i took it that this had to be Early's mother.

As she looked up at me and frowened seeing a strange man in her kitchen, she growled "I thought you stopped with that" and then Early turned around, "Hi" i said smiling nervously, the look he gave me was not what i had expected at all, he messured me, sized me up and i didnt like the way he did that, "I'm sorry.. I"

"Do i know you?" he said, squinting his eyes, trying to determine who i was, and what i was doing in his house.

"No, i have the wrong place, im sorry" I said, biting my lip not to cry, i tured and grabbed the handle of the kitchen door to leave.

"Cain?" Early suddenly said, "Is that really you?"

I turned around and looked at Early, not really sure what to say, this had seemed like such a good idea when i had thought of it, i had clung to the promise i had made once. and now i just felt stupid. "yea" i mumbled.

With no warning Early grabbed me and pulled me close, wrapping his arms around me, holding me close. "holy shit" he whispered.

"I told you i'd find you" I finally mumbled.

"yes you did" he whispered back. "But i didnt think you would"

"why not? i promised, didnt i?" I said, raising a brow, how could he even doubt it? had he not been aware at all how much he had meant to me? that this promise had helped me through all the turmoil and changes.

"I just figured that you.. that you had gotten yourself a new chance, and.." He smiled a little appologizing smile "you know, we were only kids Cain"

"So what?" I said, feeling lost and strangely annoyed, "are you telling me that i didnt know what the hell i was saying?"

"No, i feared it" Early said, blushing a little. "i had hoped for you to come take me away like some damn prince on a white horse, but when it didnt happen, I just thought that.. maybe you had forgotten, and as later i thought that after all we had just been kids, and maybe it didnt mean so much"

"You idiot" I saild with a smile "i couldent find you"

"So you.." Early whispered, but in the same second i couldent resist anymore, and planted a soft kiss on his lips, it was the sweetest kiss i could remember ever having. one i had thought id never have.

Early looked as he was about to cry, and i just smiled, knowing i had to look the same, i traced a grim scar in his face with my finger, "who hurt you?" i whispered with a broken, wollen voice.

"just somebody, it dosnt matter" he said softly, closing his eyes.

Even if time had taken its toll on him, and it was obvious he had not taken particular care of himself, he was still every bit as beautiful as i remembered him, his voice was still as soft, and his eyes was exsactly as green as they had been in my dreams. "God how i loved you" i mumbled.

He opened his eyes and looked at me with a strangely hurt expression "and what now?" he asked. "you found me, you kept your promise"

"I dont know" I whispered "Time will tell i suppose" there was no use telling lies, neither to me or him.

Early nodded "Stay for dinner atleast, meet the rest of the family" he smiled a smile that was both sad and amused "my brother dont even believe you exsisted"

I laughed softly "You told your brother about me?"

Early nodded "I told him that some day my best friend would come and take me away from this hell hole" He looked away from me, and took a deep breath, "Yea well, i was just bragging, my brother is a dipshit and i had something he didnt" Early placed a hand on my shoulder and raised his head "It dosnt matter, come on let me introduce you to the family"

I could hear in his voice how dissapointed he was, he had halfway expected me to come here and rescue him from the hole he had dug himself, but i knew Early better, he would dig this hole nomatter where he was, chaos followed his footsteps, which in some odd way only made me want him more.

There was only one bedroom in the trailer, and i didnt think i should ask, but later in the afternoon as Early and i sat there watching tv, everyone else besides his mom had left, Early zapped through the channels on the telly, when I suddenly saw my dad in the news. "Stop" i said "can we see that"?

"Sure" Early said stiffly. after moments of strange silence he said "You look like him"

"i dont think so" I said, feeling embarassed, i turned and looked at Early instead of the tv. "You know?"

"That the mayor is your dad? yea" he said with a undecifreble expression. "I walked past that building many times, looking up at the windows, wondering if you were there too" he laughed softly, apparently amused by himself.

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"Cain?" he said once his laughter had stifled. "So what happened? where they nice people? you were so scared that they wouldent like you, so did they?"

I smiled and nodded "After a while, i had some starters trouble"

"Like what" he asked.

"Like shagging my tutor, the gardner, and the general's son"

Early laughed clearly amused "and that was the same kid who was afraid to kiss me"

"well it was just different" i stated matter-of-factly.

"So are you seeing anybody?" Early asked, and seeing his strained expression, i could tell that this was the question he had wanted to ask me the entire day.

"yes and no" i said in all honesty. "I am just filling out a void i guess" a void that Early had made as he was no longer there, but i didnt tell him that. i dont even know why i was so reluctant, after all this was what i had dreamt of, to have Early all to myself, in a bed. And a chance to show him how much i loved him, the question was just if i still did that, or if that had just been a childish fantasy.and i had to keep telling myself that this was infact Early besides me, Early's arm that brushed mine as he reached for his cigarettes, it was not some other idiot i had dragged to my bed, this was the one. but somehow it just left me hot, cold and bothered at the same time. "He is not my boyfriend or nothing" i heard myself say "He just comes by from time to time when I am feeling lonley"

"Is he atleast nice?" Early asked.

I thought it was a really strange question, but i nodded "He is" i said, neglecting to tell him that this guy was both the father of my sibling and the damn sheriff of SimCity.

"Good" Early said, leaning in over me, pushing me back in the matress, "Do you think he would mind that i borrowed you a little?" he whispered.

Looking up at Early's sad green eyes all my defences faltered "No, he wouldent mind one bit" i whisperd back.

I forgot all about time and place in Early's arms, i forgot all about the filthy bed, and about his mother on the other side of the thin wall. there was only the two of us. But as our brief escape ended and we returned to reality, i noticed that it was night by now, and knew that i should get home before my dad started to worry, if he worried, i would end up not being able to go out of the house for weeks, it had not been the complete truth i had told Early, because my father still didnt trust me.

"Early" i said sitting up in the bed, running a hand through my hair. "its late, and.."

"I understand" he said smiling that same strange sad smile as earlier. In that moment Earlys mother banged the wall yelling "There is law and order in five minutes". Early sighed and pulled the bedlinnen aside, "Sure" he yelled back. and then turned to me, "My mom wants her tv, we should get out of the bedroom"

I nodded, feeling like a complete idiot, and so we got dressed in silence. and as Early followed me to my car outside, i could feel all eyes on me.

"Cain.. I.." Early said, standing there on the curve with his hands in his pockets, looking like a big kid. "I am glad you came"

"So am i" i said, opening the car door. "Would you mind if.. " to my own surprise i could feel myself blushing. "If i visited again, i mean i know where you live now and all"

Early clined his head and looked at me as to decifre what i said "So this is not goodbye?"

"No" i said smiling "its a, see you later"

Early nodded but didnt look convinced, "See you later then" he said, watching me as i got into the car, i started the engine, and waved as i slowly pulled out on the road. I saw Early's sister come to stand by his side, but he pushed her away and walked into the trailer without looking back.

Right enough, as i got home, my father grounded me for three weeks, making sure i could work from home, confiscating the car keys and whatever money i had, plus my key to the house. I pretended i was sorry i had missed his curfue, i didnt argue that he was actually not in any way alowed to tell me what to do, and when to be home, but i knew that would only give me a longer confinement, so i just did as he said, and waited it out, using the time to ponder on what i really felt about Early, and if i should even return, or if i should just let him live out his life.

But after one and a half month i couldent take it anymore, and i drove past Early's mom's trailer again, this time he werent home and i waited for him for an hour, listening to his damn retarded brothers lame jokes. untill he finally came home, he got out of a dark brown car, and waved to the driver before he turned and saw me and Junior sitting by the bonfire. "Cain!" he cried, running to me and falling around my neck. "you came back" he mumbled against my neck.

"I told you i would" i chuckled.

"Are you doing favours for Mister Cain too?" Junior suddenly asked, looking up at the both of us.

"what?" i said.

"Shut the fuck up Junior!" Early snapped.

But Junior just smiled and then giggled like someone had told him a dirty secret. "Ah i see"

"dont mind him" Early said, pulling me away from Junior and towards the trailer. "We're in luck" he whispered in my ear as we got to the door. "mom is at bingo, and Ramona is off with some boyfriend" He pulled me inside the trailer, and pushed me up against the wall, kissing my neck. "We have it all to ourselves" he purred.

As i woke i didnt even remember how i had ended up in the bed, we had not even been there, had we? damn Early made me forget everything around me, i could have been naked with him at the central square in SimCity and i wouldent have cared, as long as he was there, whispering, touching and kissing. But in the back of my mind, Juniors words haunted me. was Early really still doing it? not that what i did with Dorian was much better, but for some reason knowing it, left me with a sense of being dirty. Early would never be mine, truly mine. who was i kidding? this was all we had, and was that really enough? i didnt just want Early's body, i wanted his soul and his heart. As i sat there in the filthy bed in the semidarkness of dusk, i wondered if he even had one after all these years.

As i moved to get out of the bed, Early woke. "Cain?" he mumbled, as he sat up, rubbing his eyes.

"yea" i whispered.

He looked at me with badly hidden surprise "are you leaving?" he asked. i nodded, not trusting my voice. "But i thought that.. " his vice trailed off and he looked away from me and down on his hands on the top of the covers, i saw him wringing his hands nervously. "Allright" he whispered and nodded, like he understood, but i could tell that he didnt.

"Are you still turning tricks?" i asked, more harshly than i had intended.

"does it matter?" he said softly, turning away from me, sitting on the edge of the bed.

"yes it fucking matters" i said, heaing my own voice grow hard and cold.

I got dressed and Early just stayed on the bed, watching the wall intensly. "Are you leaving now?" he asked with a voice full of tears.

"I am" i said, trying to force myself to not just climb over the bed and kiss his neck and pretend this never happned.

"ok" he breathed barely audible, and nodded again.

I just stood there and looked at him, i didnt promise any 'see you later' or anything, because that would be a lie, i knew that Early would break my heart, and that thought alone scared me senseless. "I love you" i mumbled, as i walked for the door.

"..don't" Early whispered, turning his head away from me as he was at the door, i could tell he was crying, but i did not comfort him, i just turned around and walked out the trailer. trying to hold off my ow tears till i atleast was in the car.

On my way out i met Junior who had made a giant bonfire, "Leaving?" he asked smiling at me.

to my anoyance my tears decided to come prematurely, and i wiped my face in my sleeve "yea i guess i am"

"But Early said that you would stay for..." He looked at me, and then he too nodded "ah i see" he said again.

"take care Junior" i said vaguely, "and look after Early too"

"i will Mister Cain"

I went back to my life, trying to forget the strange knot in my stomach that would ache each time my thoughts fell on Early. had i been wrong to leave? Dorian clumbsy encounters didnt help one bit, i knew what i wanted, and i had just turned my back to it. Four months went like this, untill i suddenly had a phonecall from Dorian, which surprised me, he didnt call me at workhours, he told me that he had a guy in his detention cell that used to be my little accomplish, and he wanted to know if i would come down to the station.

As i hung up i wasnt sure what the hell was going on? was it Ade? or was it Early? or anyone else from the halfway house. and was Dorian telling me this to be nice, or to be an asshole, i couldent tell. but i would just have to worry about that later. for now i just got into my car ad drove off to the police station.

TBC

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Heh this cracked me up, its Junior taking a bath in the flower arrengement. freaking everybody else out.

These two was just too funny.. couldent find a place for them in the story, so i didnt bother cleaning them up, but heh... i love Earlys expressions.