There was this contest at insiminator.net what i ofcourse was not participating in, because i am always late for the cool challenges.. and really with all the fanfic challenges i have before me, i dont really need a sims challenge too. But it had me going non the less, and so i thought up this little story, dont know how many chapters it will be in yet.. but yea i did actually do something about the story and the pictures too.. beware people on dial-up! I hope y'all enjoy this. and let me warn for samesex stuff and really corny/angsty plotlines.. oh well lets get on with it!

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I was unwanted from the beginning, i was told by the nuns at the home that my father had named me Cain, his ill fated son. I never met him, nor my mother for that sake, and it dosnt matter much anymore, sometimes it gets to me that they could be living in a nice house, i could have siblings.. I always wanted a little sister. Maybe they have a white house and a big golden dog that ate my sisters birthday cake once, and everyone still talks about it. Or maybe they are dead... i have no way of knowing, since i dont even know my fathers surname, the nuns might have known, but no one ever told me anything about it. So when i grew older i got too old for the boys home where i lived, and was shown the gate with 300 simolonians and the clothes i wore. Quickly i found this place, or rahter this place found me. A social worker that runs this place, Layla. She found me roaming though a dumpster and told me i could come to the shelter, i went and i never looked back, this all seems like yesterday, but the truth is that its two years ago that i came here, I just turned 17 this may and the world should be a open book to me. But when you get a crummy start, its all that harder to get up again, and i recon that there will be no college for me, i cant even read good enough to read childrens books, and dont even mention algebra. As it looks now i have the fine choice between crime and crime if i want to float. I should maybe introduce the rest of the guys here, at the moment we are only 5, but its usually a lot more packed.

From the left you see Adrian the read haired guy, he looks like a girl tho, that tends to get him in trouble. Then we have Liva, i dont even know if that is her real name at all, she is not good at telling the truth, but she is the best goddamn lock-picker around. On your right we have Early, he is the one with the pink, orange and red hair, he is my best friend of all times. Then there is Lucille, she works out all the time and want to be a professional female boxer, Ade allways comments, claiming she will just end up being a gello-wrestler in some bar, but i think its because he likes her, i can see it on his smile when she walks in the room. and finally there is me, i am the darkhaired dude at the end of the table.. and my story you know already.

Adrian was in a really good mood that day, cooking for us all.. nobody asked where he had gotten those money, not even Layla! i guess everyone was just happy that he had decided to use his money on something for us all.

As on que, Liva busted in the doors from the street, looking awfully smug. we all knew that this meant that something good had happened. and seconds later she was followed by Lucille who looked just as smug. Then i saw the boxes in the hall, there were three of them, and they looked heavy, i tried to make out what they said.. "S..T.. St.." I mumbled.

"Stereo" Adrian said with an amused smile.

"Ah" i whispered while i blushed "thanks"

Liva and Lucille were fighting, Lucille claimed she knew someone whod pay a good price for these, but Liva werent exsactly convinced, because the last time they had done business with one of Lucille's 'friends' - they had ended up zelch, broke and bummed out.

And as Lucille kept figting for her case, and Liva grew more and more annoyed, i decided i would go and see if there were any leftovers of Ade's food in the kitchen, i got up and on my way there i passed the dining room, where i saw Ade and Early giggeling as they hung out on the table with a bottle of booze. i changed my route and walked over to them "hey guys" i said with a smile.

"Hey there handsome" Early said. "want some?" he held out the bottle.

"sure" i said and took the bottle and took a big swing of the harsh liquid.

Ade laughed at me winching as i handed it back to them, but he moved over so i could sit in the middle. We spend the whole afternoon drinking, and as the sun had set, Ade decided he wanted to stay home with Lucille watching telly, but Early and I went out to find some more to drink.

In the early morning hours we were both pretty wasted, and then suddenly as i looked at EArly i could see his entire expression change, and he went from smiling to biting his nails, "What is wrong?" i asked.

"Benjamin" he whispered. "I just saw him"

"Benjamin?" i asked "Do you owe him money or something?"

"No, man" Early said with a frown, "Benji there is a regular, and i cant afford to loose him.. I.." He turned and smiled a strange smile as he ruffled my hair "It was fun Cain, but i gotta run, see you tomorrow right?"

"sure" i grumbled, not really undestanding this. I knew how he made his money, it was not like it was a secret, and every one here had turned tricks now and then, when the cash flow was low. All but me, after all i had spent my childhood with nuns. i felt my heart sink as i saw Early walk over to Benjamin, greeting him with a shallow hug and dragging him to the bathroom to discuss.. i didnt know.. prices perhaps? or maybe he wanted to do the whole thing there?

I could hear them discuss what was going to happen and what would cost what.. my mind raced, this was my best friend, and honestly then i didnt at the time understand the way my heart fluttered and my breath got caught in my throat when he walked in the room, or smiled to me. i should have realised that i was in love, a long time before this forsaken morning. And whatever made me do what i did i dont have any explanation for, maybe it was the booze, or maybe it was beause i wanted to be close to Early in 'that' way, or maybe i just missed closeness and companionship, but non the less i suddenly got up and walked into the bathroom, looking a little timidly up at Early and Benjamin who looked surprised to say the least.

After an awkward silence, Benjamin finally said something "oh my, you're purdy"

I blushed, and looked up at Early who gnawed on his lip nervously. "This is my best bud, uhm.. Carl". He said.

Benjamin smiled "How old are you Carl?"

"17" i said.

"perfect" Benjamin mumbled, and then turned to Early "You never told me you had such pretty friends"

Early looked conflicted, and looked me straight into my eyes for what seemed an eternity, untill his smug smile returned and he turned to Benjamin, "Pretty he is, but rich he is not" he said with a slick voice.

"Look, I know you want extra, but its not gonna happen" Benjamin said and then he turned his head and oogled me up and down. "You can split the mullah with your bud there, but I aint gonna pay more"

"Benji.." Early whined "thats not fair"

"Life is not fair" Benjamin replied "Now if you boys will excuse me, i need to take a wizz"

"Sure, I will be upstairs" Early said as he walked out the door.

Once outside the toilet, Eearly turned to me and looked at me with a serious face. "What the hell are you doing man?" he hissed.

"Helping you out" I whispered.

"No fucking way!, i'm not gonna owe you just because you're drunk" he whispered, but he dragged me up the stairs non the less.

Once inside the room, He closed he door and turned to me again, "Listen Cain, think about this, and think hard.. Benji is... uhm.. demanding, and you need to be sure that you can deal with that"

"demanding?" i asked sensing a hint of nervousness in the pits of my stomach, what the hell was it i had gotten myself into?

But in the same minute Benjamin walked in the door, and held his hand out to Early, Early obediently laid the key to the room in the man's palm, and stepped back with a sigh and a warning glare in my direction.

Benjamin stepped back and looked at us, "This must be my effin lucky day" he said with a smile, "Now there are two of you,
show me what you can do"

Early promptly grabbed me and engaged in a toe-curling kiss, i felt my cheeks heat up and my last defense smulder as the heat went straight to my groin. Little did Early know that this was my first kiss, never had anyone held me and kissed me, i must admit it was one hell of a debut to make, but i had asked for this myself.

As Early ended the kisses, and Benjamin started to undress him, I began to understand what was about to happen, this was too much for me to comprehend in my drunken state, and so i put on my best game-face and started to get out of my own clothes.

It seemed like it was over before it began, but as much as i wanted to lay under the covers and suck up the aftermath of what had happened, safely snuggled up to Early's slim body, now damp with sweat. Benjamin got up and got dressed, and sadly so did Early. and then so did i, even if my body hummed with joy and the thrill of knowing how wicked i had just been, i stayed myself and sat on the bed as Benjamin and Early started to argue.

"I thought i would get a show" Benjamin fumed "Instead i felt like i was back in college, what the hell were you thinking?"

Early looked down and studied the floor between his feet intensly, "I'm sorry, i didnt know" he mumbled.

"I thought you boned him before, isnt that what you whores do all day?" Benjamin raged.

Early shook his head slowly "No i havent" he said allmost meekly.

"If you dont make this up to me, then i will only pay for what i came for, and that is you" Benjamin said, smiling awfully full of himself.

"What?" Early gasped and looked up, "You said that you wouldent pay for him.. so i thought that.."

"You thought, did you?" Benjamin said icily "Well, i told you that if you wanted to split with your bud it was fine with me, and so.. half the money is yours, and those you shall have, but i aint giving you one damn simolonian for that piss poor preformance of your fiancee over there"

"He's not my fiancee" Early snapped back, "Come on man, you cant just cheat me out of half the money, its not even enough as it is.."

the more i heard Early crawl for this creep, the more anger i felt, untill i suddenly stepped up in Benjamin's face "Listen buster" I growled "If you must know, i have never done 'it' with a man before, actually i have never done 'it' with anyone at all!"

Early let out a loud gasp, and looked utterly shocked, "why the Fuck didnt you tell me?" he shook his head vigoriously, "I would never have allowed you to come up here, had i known that" he said.

"I know" I said, "but that is not the point, the point is that you owe my friend the money you agreed on, and not the half, i might not be experienced, but i do know what doing it to a virgin would have cost you, if that had been your desire, and had you known"

"oh man.. what have you done?!" Early rambled, raking a hand through his hair.. "this is all wrong, man.. all wrong" He turned to Benjamin and looked truly desperate "Look, i didnt know, alright?"

But Benjamin werent softened but Early's plea, he turned his anger on me instead. "I know what you are trying to do" he raged "You are going to go out on the streets telling God and every man that i didnt pay for the whole virgin experience, but i have news for you young man, I dont believe you one bit, and you can take your little lousy con-story and stick it"

"enough!" Early cried, but that just earned him a fast slap of Benjamin's back hand.

"silence!" Benjamin growled."You aint gonna trick me, boy!"

Now it was suddenly Early's turn to get upset, and somehow it made me proud and happy that he did this all for me, "If my friend says it, its true" he raged. "But dont worry, we're not gonna diss you anywhere, as long as i get the pay i was promised from the start" he said, more calmly.

Benjamin gave me a deadly glare, but never the less he counted the simolonian notes and handed them over to Early. "You owe me" he hissed.

"I owe you nothing, you got what you paid for" Early said just as cooly.

I stepped in and grabbed Benjamin's hand "I am sorry i caused you discomfort" i said.. and as i said it i couldent really understand that this came out my mouth, why was i applogizing to this jerk?, maybe it was for Early's sake, after all this fight had never happened if i had not meddled. "please dont take it out on him"

Bejnamin looked at me with a messured stare, and then nodded "sure, kid" he said and then turned to Early "C'mon Erik, you can show me to the door, and we can talk some more"

"Of course" Early said, and looked relieved, as Benjamin handed over the key to Early again, and he opened the door to the corridor, Early turned and looked at me, and it was the most gut-wrenching dissapointed glare anyone had ever given me.

After they had left i tiptoed downstairs, not wanting to wake anybody since it was still early morning.. my mind raced like mad, i didnt understand that look that Early had given me, did this mean that he hated me? had i really preformed that poorly? a blood-curdling thought struck me, Early had tried to talk me out of it from the start, this maybe meant that he was repulsed by me? i cursed and tripple cursed my self for not listening to what my friend had actually said, why did i have to be such a dimwit sometimes?

The whole world had changed and turned upside down, and it seemed almost surreal that everything else seemed normal, Ade slept on the couch infront of the fire place, the house was cold by now, and he preffered the warm fire tonight, Lucille was nowhere to be seen, so i guess she found something else to do.. poor Ade, i knew how he felt. and as i walked past my friend on the sofa and into the kitchen to get a drink of water, i had to smile to myself in the dark, even if Early hated me now, i could still hear him purr in delight in my ear, and i remembered how soft his hands had been, and his lips was absolutely divine, how could that have been a bad thing?

I got my drink of water and went back to the front door to peek out of the window, maybe i could see them out there in the pale morning light. But to my surprise a pair of arms wrapped around me from behind, slowly turning me around, untill i looked directly into Early's big green eyes. "I'm sorry" i whispered bairly audible.

"Not more than I am" he whispered back as he tenderly brushed some hair from my face "you've been crying" he stated and looked at me with pain written all over his face. "did i hurt you? are you in pain?"

"No" i whispered back and smiled a brave smile, even if my tears threathened to fall again, just from the worried expression of Early, all for me! "it was really nice" i said lamely.

"Liar" Early chuckled, "listen Cain, i would never have let that swine touch you, or even breathe in your direction, had i know that... you know.. that you never had done 'it' before"

"A regular mother Tereza, huh?" i said, trying for a joke.

and it worked, Early grinned and shook his head amused "come on, lets go back to bed and sleep some, you look wasted" And then i got what i wanted, i got to snuggle up against my secret love's soft body and slowly fall asleep listening to his steady breathing.

But slowly in the days to come, he stopped hanging out with me, in the beginning i just thought it was strange, but by the end of the month, i felt like a spectator to it all. and i didnt really understand why he had alienated himself so, but maybe i just didnt want me around anymore?!

Later that evening i caught him in the kitchen as he was doing the dishes, "Early?" i said stepping up behind him, "Why are you avoiding me?"

He turned and smiled a very messured and mechanical smile "I am not avoiding you, sweet'ums"

"you are" I said crossing my arms over my chest.

"Stop with the paranoia already, man." he said, leaning back against the counter.

"I am not being paranoid, but ever since that.. uhm.. that morning, you have avoided my precense, why is that?"

Then Liva came into the kitchen, and the conversation died right there, "whoa sorry!" she sneered, reacting upon the absolute silence, and then she left with a offended huff.

"We need to talk about this" I offered.

"what is there to talk about?" Early said, grabbing my shoulders in a cameraderie way, "I have been busy, thats all"

"Liar" I spat.

"Look, this is not the place for this, ok?" He said as he grabbed my hand and dragged me upstairs to the same damn room as i had been in with him and Benjamin, not even the sheets had been changed.

I just sat there and listened in dawning horror as Early explained to me that he liked me a lot, and he cherrished our friendship and all, good people was hard to find on this side of the tracks, but he was not one of them, he had a profession that demanded that he did not get involved, and he had gotten the impression from my kiss and what i had said that i was in love with him, which was allso true, i had to admit it by now, i was madly in love with him, my heart thundered away just by the most fickle of touches from him, or a smile.. and as he continued to explain himself i knew i had started crying. He was telling me that he was not in love with me, and didnt want to be around me because i had feelings for him, he had tried to avoid hurting my feelings because he liked me, and had hoped that this enfactuation would go away shortly.. only i knew it wouldent.

On to part 2 -->

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Here's a little outtake piccy, i really like it, but it just didnt seem to fit the story at all.. 'sigh'